Gary Leonard Oldman

  le melithon anuir ..
 
 Those were the words he had used, seemingly without a hint of a quake in his voice and without fear of what it implied, and the longer she kept herself in the silence that followed, the deeper the male slipped into shadows of doubt. She wasn’t aware of his feelings until now, but she knew not how to approach with a response that would let him down lightly. The problem here wasn’t Esteh, but it was in the reality of their situation and the fact that she was not bound to astral realms. The two knew this; he should have considered the cruelty of telling her he loved her when they hadn’t even come across a path that would keep her there longer. For months now they had tried to find a way to prolong her visits, but too long out of her body had its disadvantages and she wound up on returning home bed-bound for days. He knew that, but still he confessed such a thing.

 ‘ You know we cannot be together, ‘ she spoke, hushed tones riding over the previous silence as she turned his downcast gaze back to her. ‘ That is a wickedness we can’t escape from, Estelon, we have never found a way to challenge space and time to such a degree. ‘ Le melin .. but there isn’t a way, ‘ her own gaze dropped from his face as her hand fell away, a single teardrop pooling at the corner of her left eye and he spotted it despite her looking away from him.

 ‘ If there was a way, would you stay with me? ‘ he seemed to be softly pleading with her, his own eyes full of the sorrow they both would endure if they tried to make such a relationship possible.

 Helene turned away from him fully then, her sadness as she pondered such a thing covering her but without suspected comfort; she returned his affection, but to live in love, unable to share their hearts from moment to moment, would torment her too greatly. She knew she had to find a way if it were possible, without causing him further anguish, to let him down lightly. But as her head had been spinning for several minutes with possibilities that always reached a solid brick wall, neither of them were powerful enough to prevent the inevitable that would see them separated no matter how they chose to go about it. She couldn’t live like that.. she was wondering if he could because of the abrupt declaration mere moments ago; surely he was more wise to her predicament.

 Further tears sprung forth now, both eyes pooling as single streams fell from her cheeks but she shot forward before he could even reach for her to comfort her woe. Estelon did call after her, but the woman would be inconsolable for a short time so he understood his place; he wasn’t to move to find her until a certain amount of time had passed, albeit a difficult task for him to undertake. A strong need and desire he had to offer her protection and the love he had already developed that aided in his understanding of the fact that she now held his heart in the palm of her hands even if she felt it was a dangerous road to travel. They were very different, but still very much the same - it burned deep within his chest, his ache for her and knowing his love was returned, amped it up.

 ‘ Helene, ‘ he spoke, his voice barely above a whisper as he moved nearer to the balcony where she stood, her body reacting to his presence long before he said a word as her shoulders tensed and fingers tightened their hold on the stone ledge.

 ‘ Don’t, please.. ‘ she managed, broken more so than earlier when she had run out on him, but it did not sway him from approaching, until he stood directly behind her and lifted his hands up and settled them on her shoulders. ‘ Esteh.. please, ‘ she added, a hiccup in her voice to indicate she had not forgotten the tears she had cried, nor the faint blush that tinted her cheeks as she felt the male loosen one of the ties at the back of her dress to drop her sleeve down off her shoulder - as the room provided to place a tender kiss upon her shoulder was offered in doing so.

 ‘ Let me have just one night with you, Helene, guren min gaim lín.. ‘ the male spoke these words with such sincerity that she turned slowly in his embrace, pressing her cheek against his chest & allowing him to rest his jaw atop her head for a few fleeting moments of understanding that found its way to both of them, before she pulled back ever so slightly to look up at him.

 Estelon held her face in his hands, noting the heat provided by her cheeks as she remained in a way fairly bashful before him, but all he gave in response was a warm smile before leaning down to meet her lips with his own, savouring the sweetness. She allowed him to do this; despite those former words of it being impossible and unlikely for the two to ever engage in anything, it had not once suggested she didn’t want them to. Or, that she had wished him to abstain from it entirely.

 ‘ One night, ‘ she sounded those words, echoing his request with barely there confirmation that it seemed she had been hoping for all along, but didn’t quite know how to ask it herself. And now - now that he had her in his arms, giving herself to him for such a short fragment of time, he wasn’t going to waste the opportunity to prove just how much he considered her a light in the citadel.

A/N: Did a rewatch of SOA and hearing Tig talk about Colleen in such a negative light really broke my heart. I know it shouldn't have but it did. Think of this as an AU sort of thing. I've changed some things around just creative purposes. Title Inspiration: Love's The Last To Know by Bob Seger.


"There was a girl I really loved. Would have moved heaven and earth for her. She had my heart from day one, man."

“You mean Colleen? I thought you two just had Dawn.”

“Oh that ****? I wish that **** **** was dead. No, I'm talking about a girl I knew before I met that gash. Baby would have been a boy.”

Colleen felt her heart stop. There had been no one before her, she knew this, he knew this but once again Alexander had managed to break her heart all over again for what seemed like the hundredth time. She had originally showed up to have him sign the last of the paperwork on the house that no longer felt like home. Dawn's bedroom had finally been packed up, no thanks to him. She had allowed him to move back in because he had no other place to go and she thought just for a second that she needed him. Now she knew she didn't. She made a purposeful movement toward a heavy tool chest and gave it a good solid kick making sure she left a dent and a scratch.

“Sign these.”

She watched as her husband tensed and turned to face her. He actually had the gall to tell others that they were divorced. In reality they were still married but separated.

“C..Colleen.”

“Not a word. Sign the papers and pack your things.”

She'd given him a solid twenty-five years of marriage and this was what he said about her behind her back. He wasn't wrong, the child before Dawn would have been a boy had he survived longer than five hours. The middle one would have been a girl but she had been lost right before the second ultrasound. After Dawn there was supposed to be another boy but he had been stillborn. Right now she could kill him.

“I didn't...it was just talk.”

“Yeah, right. Talk. Forget the twenty some years I gave to you. Forget all the messes I cleaned up for you. The baby I raised without your help, the home I made while you were out running for the club. The lies I've told. I'm just some piece for you, that's all I ever was.”

She watched him sign his signature with a shaky hand as his hung head low.

“It's a front, Colly. Always was.”

“She would still be alive had she not come to see you. I left a box in the office for you. Give your keys to the realtor because when you're done here I won't be there.”

“What?”

“I'm going. There's nothing keeping me here.”

“Not even me?”

“Especially you.”

“I'm sorry.”

“It's too late for apologies.”

“Please...”

“Don't. Just don't. It'll just be another lie and I can't take it. My heart can't take it, okay?”

That was the last time she would step foot into Charming, the town she had called home for over two decades. She thought she would cry, but the further she drove the more the weights lifted away from her shoulders. Rolling down the window she felt her wedding ring set slip off of her finger somewhere near the city limit line. Her first stop when she reached Los Angeles would be to get the crow covered up. Then and only then would she get in contact with a lawyer and have Alex properly served with papers.  She was truly starting over. Why hadn't she done this ten years ago while she still had Dawn? Because she still loved him with all of her heart. She thought he had loved her but after hearing those words and years of gut feelings that something was off she ignored it. There was a saying that she could remember her mother saying. In times of crisis, especially when she'd heard that a marriage was breaking up.

'Love's always the last to know, Colly. Always.'

She had been right. She had blinded herself to seeing Tig for what he was. Now with his true colors so clear before her she set out and spread her wings to make a life for herself somewhere where no one knew her. She still had time.

I'm so so sorry about the delay in replying to this. This just sounds breathtakingly beautiful and honestly, to quote Liz Lemon, I want to go to there. I seriously hope you're going to tie this into your book, start a book about it or something. It's well worth exploring and fleshing out and I'm already a fan! :-D

We got the same result again, ahh! I love how that keeps on happening. Thank you for sharing this one, too, I love everything astrology related but take it all with a grain of salt these days. My signs are below and I actually quite like this result an awful lot, but also agree with your views. I don't think I'm as kind as the result offers, either.

Leo Rising / Scorpio Moon / Virgo Venus

I have to be honest here and say I have never seen this movie at all! but I got the same result as you, so I'm definitely going to have to give it a watch before the new year